You Don't Know Half The Story

It's hard trying to talk to someone about something when they have no idea what is really happening. When my best friend's dad died five years ago, someone dear to my family, I tried everything I could to help her get through the death. It was the hardest thing I thought that I would ever go through but apparently it's not like that anymore. Recently there has been so much that has been going on and I try to hide myself with work or friends but today I ran into one of my many problems with always trying to stay on the move, I became overtired. Your body can only do so much before it decides that it has had enough and my mind this morning decided that it was enough. Today is December 27, and I have worked Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday (Christmas Eve), yesterday and tomorrow, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. That's 15 days with 3 days off somewhere in the middle and I know for some people that is normal but for me that is no where near normal. I thought that if I wasn't at home doing nothing that it would make things easier, but man was I wrong.
I always try explaining to my friends what going on through my mind but they never seem to fully understand what I'm saying to them since they haven't gone through what I am right now. I still cannot find the right words to say what is going on inside my head but hopefully getting it out with my writing will help.

Always,
-Allie

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